drawning and sinking

I'm drawning to the bottom of the sea
The sea full of tears
The ocean full of pain

sunny cloudy

I stare I look I see nothing
I sleep and awake and sleep and awake
I awake I recall I think I still see nothing
I only know that everything is blank

The shadows back I try to make it away
I close my eyes but the shadows stay
I curse I shout I finally cry
I stay in silence and at the end I pray

It's dark it's grey it's cloudy
and I try to make it sunny
From distance I hear a melody
Make the whole things look more funny

I stare I look I still see nothing
I decided to stop crying
at the end I feel something
that I will somehow find the ending

Can't think about the title

married gay married gay go away
you're not supposed to be here, there and everywhere

Married gay married gay, the way I always say
Just to keep your shadow away

You are not real you are only in a dream
Coz if you're real...I'll follow your stream

Married gay married gay go away
Otherwise I'll beg you to stay

knife

haaaa

how many hearts have you stabbed for your ego???? I hate your simple smile and soft voice. so fucking fake..... you are like a knife... to hurt others.... I never like it

guilty stuppid pleasure

definition: a pleasure that makes you feel guilty and stupid. but somehow, it's still a pleasure.

-I feel guilty and stupid- where's my brain????

weddingku

di atas meja kulihat tumpukan weddingku
ingin rasanya kugeret pintu
atau sekalian kulempar batu
teringat betapa bodohnya aku
iya pilu sih pilu
tapi kan juga gara-gara kelakuanku

Dimana letak otakku?
sepertinya jadi membeku
kata orang sunda sih belegug
aku cuma ingin ketok-ketok pake palu
terus teriak huuuuuuuuuuuu

life oh life. if it's not comlicated, then it's not life

why lfe shold be complicated? maybe because it's life. we are not angel who has no life aren't we (like I know how an angel live anyway). Sometimes, we want sumthin and t's affordable. when we afford to buy that thing, we are no longer allowed to touch it. For example, my aunt said that when she was young, she really want to eat deicious food. when she has the money later on when she's old, diabetic and cholesterol prevent her to eat fatty, creamy and sweet food.

Someone who are crazy for us are not someone we like, someone we like belongs to someone else, and it makes the relation into chasing each other without ending. Maybe we like sum1, and he/she likes us to, but the circumstances are not supporting. example, siti nurbaya case. We like someone, he/she likes us a lot, but he/she likes his/her couple better, and they put us as second priority. geeezzzzzz

rich people wants peaceful life, poor people with peaceful life wants money. and abbove all that, there is always someone who are rich, beautiful, smart, and has someone he/she love. Look like perfect isn't it????????

Who we need is far, who we don't want to have is near. Who we want to have is in front of us, but he/she brings no good to us. the one who brings good to us is not the one we like. If a book said that why men marry bitches? could I say why women love bad boy?

just a thought when I'm tired with playing farm frenzy all day long