tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-49891267943804250732012-01-24T23:27:19.566+07:00I saw, I read, I observe. The most important thing is that I write it all and let you all knowfitriDqueenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09846193740386884801noreply@blogger.comBlogger381100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4989126794380425073.post-160827628242759482010-06-18T16:35:00.005+07:002010-06-18T17:21:15.836+07:00

Is love un-dividable?Is duality in love possible?Is dividing your love justifiable?

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I guess I need to start writing my blog again, the usual way...

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God Please.........Help me..........Take me out from here.........Help me escape from this feelingI almost couldn't stand this anymorecouldn't bear the tears and the nightmaregive me the strengthsshow me the wayplease............

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I see my self insideI see the miseries in my mindI see my self insideI feel the sorrow in my heartI see my self insideI touch the tears dropped from my eyes

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it's very difficult to breath....It consumes my eneryIt takes my soul....do i still have anything left?

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so crowded here......all i can do is prayinghoping that it will come truecoz i can no longer hold what i feeland i'm afraid...I need....me in distancefly away......chasing for dreamsleaving the memoriesplease god....

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hiks hiks hiks T_T T_T T_T lagi sensi niiiiiiwhy everything is getting more and more complicated?pengen nyemlungin kepala ke tong atau mengkeret di tempurung kayak kura2how nice to be a kid without burden.....hffffffffff geeeerrrrrrrrrrrr

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a hole...empty...blank...sad...

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Really, I wish u know how i feel

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curiosity kills! to much information will kill me. what i don't know won't hurt me, so STOP IT!!!!!!!

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kesal... kalo sudah mencoba mendelegasikan tugas tapi malah kayak kerja 2x....... positifnya, masih untung dibandtuin. negatifnya.... mbok ya lebih teratur gitu.... gw orangnya berantakan tapi at least filing gw structured

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Unlike the previous years, I need quite a long time to write this although I already wrote this in my mobile notes. Even for now, I think I still need a deep breath to start writing my reflection. first of all, I would loke to say alhamdulillah for all blessings I had last year, for every wishes you granted, for my life. If I read my last year wishes, all of them come true altough some of them

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I'm drawning to the bottom of the seaThe sea full of tearsThe ocean full of pain

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I stare I look I see nothingI sleep and awake and sleep and awakeI awake I recall I think I still see nothingI only know that everything is blankThe shadows back I try to make it awayI close my eyes but the shadows stayI curse I shout I finally cryI stay in silence and at the end I prayIt's dark it's grey it's cloudyand I try to make it sunnyFrom distance I hear a melodyMake the whole things look

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married gay married gay go awayyou're not supposed to be here, there and everywhereMarried gay married gay, the way I always sayJust to keep your shadow awayYou are not real you are only in a dreamCoz if you're real...I'll follow your streamMarried gay married gay go awayOtherwise I'll beg you to stay

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haaaahow many hearts have you stabbed for your ego???? I hate your simple smile and soft voice. so fucking fake..... you are like a knife... to hurt others.... I never like it

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definition: a pleasure that makes you feel guilty and stupid. but somehow, it's still a pleasure.-I feel guilty and stupid- where's my brain????

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di atas meja kulihat tumpukan weddingkuingin rasanya kugeret pintuatau sekalian kulempar batuteringat betapa bodohnya akuiya pilu sih pilutapi kan juga gara-gara kelakuankuDimana letak otakku?sepertinya jadi membekukata orang sunda sih belegugaku cuma ingin ketok-ketok pake paluterus teriak huuuuuuuuuuuu

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why lfe shold be complicated? maybe because it's life. we are not angel who has no life aren't we (like I know how an angel live anyway). Sometimes, we want sumthin and t's affordable. when we afford to buy that thing, we are no longer allowed to touch it. For example, my aunt said that when she was young, she really want to eat deicious food. when she has the money later on when she's old,

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It's you, not him....who left the scarthe one I hope could help me raising but push me downthe one I hope could keep me stand still but let me falljust when I need someone to hold onnever thought you'll left me aloneBut now I know that I'm the one who I could rely on

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I was in the taxi with my friends on the way to mall ambasador last night when I saw an old hunchbacked lady sweeping the street. I said to my friend "oh poor lady". Then he told me a story. Once he was somewhere in Jakarta seeing an old lady collecting plastic bottles and glasses. He asked her the price of plastic bottles per kilogram, and the lady said Rp. 2000/kg. My friend asked her again how

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Banyak orang bilang kalo kita itu harus selalu berjalan ke depan...terus...terus...dan terus.... berlari mengejar masa depan yang cemerlang. Begitulah biasanya nasihat orang tua. Semakin lama, persaingan untuk mendapatkan masa depan yang cemerlang itu sepertinya semakin ketat. Semua orang berlomba-lomba untuk sekolah setinggi mungkin, dan mungkin mendapatkan gaji sebesar mungkin. Sepertinya,

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Two of my friends said that I won’t succeed in making my new knock down book shelf and they are wrong. I DIT IT! just like a song: All by my self. You may ask why is it important for me to tell you I did it. The answer is because I found a quite interesting philosophy behind the process of making my shelf.Those who ever visited my room know how messy it is. I decided to buy a shelf. It must be a

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Selamat tahun baru semua!!!Malem ini malem taun baru, tapi gw milih diem di rumah. Pengen sih keluar rumah, tapi setelah dipikir2 tiap tahun baru gw emang selalu di rumah dan posting blog pertama gw dalam tahun itu. Jadi marilah gw mulai dengan mendeskripsikan keadaan gw malem ini. Gw baru aja pulang dari liburan di pulau pramuka yang sangat menyenangkan karena gw snorkling n belajar diving meski

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I was upset because I feel that I was discriminated just because I am a women. Around a week ago, my friend asked me if I would be available to replace him for 3 days as a language assistant in one consultant firm in Dumai, Riau because he'll be away for christmas holliday. He then asked me to send my cv and he would give it to his consultant. I have a long vacation during christmas anyway. A day

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If only I were a teenager, I would enjoy this. But now I'm scared if I should let it open and vulnerable. But I believe that it is inevitable isn't it? Gosh... after years I finally should face this kind of joy as well as threat, again.....Should I build a strong and high wall and prevent any possible attack or just let it open and find out maybe the one that will come is such a bless.....I am

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Gw menikmati banget wiken kemaren karena gw makan di tempat yang lumayan ok (Nu-Art Cafe), makanannya gak mengecewakan (walaupun bukan enak banget), dan dilanjutin sama ngopi di tempat yang asik. Namanya breeze, di daerah Cipaku. Beneran tempatnya asik, karena bentuknya tuh rumah, dikelilingi kebun yang luas dan di kebun itu banyak gazeebonya trus di dalem gazeebo itu ada sofa2 besar buat ngobrol

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Pas mau pulang ke Bandung jumat malem kemaren, seperti biasa gw naek x-trans dari fatmawati. Di deket tempat parkir mobil di pinggir jalan besar, ada pohon dan di bawahnya ada seorang cewe,seorang cowo n dua anak kecil tiduran di bawah pohon sekitar jam 7 maleman gitu. Gw kira mereka emang pengemis yang lagi nongkrong di pinggir jalan. Trus gw kan duduk di barisan paling belakang, sebelah

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Udah jadi tradisi buat banyak masyarakat Sunda, untuk ngerayain yang namanya munggahan. Waktu salah satu temen gw nanya munggah tu apa, gw juga agak susah jelasinnya. Kalo di Aceh si ada tradisi serupa namanya meugang. Kurang lebih, Munggah tu kumpul-kumpul 1 hari sebelum bulan Ramadhan mulai. Kumpul-kumpulnya bisa nyekar ke makam leluhur, atau malah makan-makan.Sabtu kemaren, gw, nyokap, kakak

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My feeling said yes, my logic said definitely NO. If I let my feeling wins, my logic lost. Then stupidity will haunt me foreverIf I let my logic wins, I'lost my comfort.But, is it a kind of comformity I'm looking for?Am I happy with that kind of comformity?Is is a comformity anyway?I think I have to fight for my logicBy the end, I'll find my true comfort anyway

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Kemaren gw pergi ke pemakamannya bokap ex staff kantor gw. Gw gak kenal si sama orangnya, karena dia pindah sebelum gw masuk. Rumah duka yang gw datengin itu ada di daerah Jakarta Utara gitu deh. Pertama gw dateng ke rumah duka, agak kaget juga karena kok tempatnya terang benderang gitu. Gw mikirnya bakal ada tangisan msal di begitu bnayak rumah duka yang ada tenryata enggak.Rumah duka bokap ex

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Extra ordinary happiness isWhen my words motivate peopleWhen my hug warmth othersWhen my hands help my friendsWhen my jokes make people laughExtra ordinary happiness is when I could make other people happy

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Ya ampun fit.... berat amat selera lo. Kalo jazz macem tompi gw masih bisa nikmatin, tapi kalo nonton konser musik klasik ntar dulu deh. Hua... apa coba yang salah ama suka ngedengerin musik klasik? heran!Toh gw juga punya lagu pop, dangdut, jazz dan rock yang gw suka. Bahkan metallica pun menurut gw keren. Yang gak bisa gw nikmatin tuh cuma musik hip-hop.kata-kata itu gw denger dari temen gw

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Waktu salah seorang keponakan gw mau nikah, ...Tunggu.... keponakan gw???? yap. Nyokap gw tuh anak bungsu dari 11 bersaudara. Jadi, gw tuh seumuran bukan sama sepupu2 gw, tapi sama keponakan2 gw dari samping. Jadi kalo di posting kali ini gw menggunakn kata sepupu, bayangin orang ang umurnya lebih tua dari 40 tahun. Kalo keponakan, yah sebaya lah. Pusing dah...Nyokap gw dah sibuk nyebarin

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When I was on elementary school til university, I have some "permanent becak driver" to drop me to school and pick me up home. They were becak driver 18 years ago, and they still are becak driver todayYears ago, when I went home almost midnight with my bros, they show me a guy who stand on Tamblong street near to Preanger hotel. The guy with white hair and white bear. My bro told me that he's a

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I am now 25 years old, having a Bachelor of Politics in International Relations, Master Degree in bussiness, a good job (Not one of the biggest MNC in the world every MBA degree wants to joint with, but at least it's fun, full of joy and I work with smile), and rent my own studio wannabe to live in Jakarta (despite that the water is on and off). Unfortunately, according to the parameter of

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I am reading one of the Karens Amstrong's book title "Sejarah Tuhan"/ The History of God. I just red the first chapter last night which talk about what Plato, Socrates, etc opinion about the entity call "God". Then my mind flew back to one of my favourite class in college: The philosophy of science with the amazing lecture named Mas Nur. I remember him telling us about nomenon, phenomenon, or

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Posting pertama di blog gw yang baru. yey!Gw sempet kepikiran tentang kepuasan pelanggan gara2 minggu lalu ke bank mandiri di Bandung. Ceritanya, demi tujuan liburan taun depan gw kan buka Tabungan Rencana Mandiri. Cuma gara2 kudu bayar kontrakan, jadi mau gw tarik sebelum waktunya. Masalahnya kan gw kerja di Jakarta, jadi harus ke Bandung buat ngurus, dan berharap bisa ngurus di weekend banking

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